People may not understand how invisible illnesses disrupt our everyday lives – precisely because they're hidden. Louisa uses poetry and storytelling to describe her personal journey with sleep apnoea.
I’ve always been a bit quirky. I like being unusual but there are drawbacks.
I was recently diagnosed with sleep apnoea. This condition most commonly affects large men, so being a petite woman did not help my case. Sleep apnoea means that every night I stop breathing several times an hour, sometimes for up to three minutes. I used to have dreadful dreams and wake full of stress hormones; my body was on red-alert because it couldn’t get oxygen. Sometimes that feeling stayed with me all day; it was difficult to calm it down. I felt out of synch. Over time this chipped away at my resilience so it was harder to deal with challenges, even everyday ones. Left untreated sleep apnoea has other serious health implications, such as heart attacks, strokes, and Alzheimers.
It was scary not understanding what was wrong and having little hope. It took years of fighting to be heard and many doctors visits. Fighting is hard when you feel ill. But I know I am not alone.
Fortunately I didn’t stop asking and kept trying to tell people what it was like. I am so grateful for two patient friends who listened and believed me. They didn’t give up, no matter how many times I got down, or how long it went on. They supported me to get the help I needed and eventually I received treatment.
Every night I now go to bed with a CPAP machine which blows air into my face and keeps my airways open. I call him Donald. Life with Donald is a whole new chapter and takes a lot of adjustment, but there is support out there for this too.
Support is available from www.hope2sleep.co.u
© K L Aspden www.writefromthesoul.co.uk
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